Monday, December 31, 2012

Scottish Quote :)

May those who love us, love us.
And those who don't love us,
May God turn their hearts;
And if He doesn't turn their hearts,
May He turn their ankles,
So we will know them by their limping.

Thoughts For the New Year - 2013



Wishing everyone a Blessed and Happy New Year for 2013.

It's a Wonderful Life is my favorite movie, not only because it is delightfully entertaining ...but gives a powerful message of hope and that we all make a difference in this life.

We should never give up on ourselves or others ...or allow the negative opinions of others to keep us down.  Remember ...God loves us and works through each of us to effect a positive difference ...even in the seemingly little things.

We may not be able to fix the world, but we can do our best to help others in our little corner of it ...big things - little things ...goodness rippling forward.  We may never know the burden others are carrying.  Even just a warm smile sent someone's way can be uplifting, validating their self worth on a day they may be feeling low.

This movie is a reminder for why we should never give up on ourselves, others ...or life in general.

May we all be as *rich* as George Bailey.

I LOVE this end scene in the movie!  :)

Anyway ....




;)

Friday, December 28, 2012

Anyone Ever Experience This? :)



I am experiencing those days all over again ...albeit ...intermittently since they don't live with us 24/7.

Anyway ...I cracked up when I saw this because just recently ...I didn't even realize that I was still on the toilet even though I had finished tinkling.  I didn't even think to wipe myself (I know TMI :), having gone into a total ZEN moment ...so peaceful ...quiet ...I was just lost in the moment.

Lost in the moment ...until ...two very young children came to the door ...Myles, almost 2 ...hitting the door with something and his sister, 3 year old Wren ...talking to me through the door.  "Mum mum?  Are you in there?  What are you doing?  When are you coming out?" , and so on.  Ha ha!

One year, at a grade school Christmas program that our youngest son and our neighbor's son were in ...we parents all sat together.  I was sitting next to the other boy's dad.  While we were waiting for the program to start, he commented on how his then 4 year old daughter never stopped talking and that she even keeps talking to him through the bathroom door.  :)

It's like young children have built in homing devices and they WILL find you.  Right?  :)

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Now I understand Why Families SUE!

I do believe in forgiveness though and unless extreme ...that is a road I'd prefer not to go down.  But ...the thought has been running through my mind since she called. I am so upset with the latest.  And maybe that first night she called 2 nights after mom died ..she wanted to tell me but thought better of it because she was still employed there. ?  At the very least ...I WILL MAKE myself look at the ED records and maybe I will have a better picture of what happened.

At 3:42 pm this afternoon, I got a call from a woman who had been one of Mom's aides in the nursing home.  She told me something so upsetting ...that I first of all can't even imagine this happened ...or that this is EVER done this way in a nursing home or anywhere.  It seems BARBARIC and even though I had nothing to do with it ...I am now feeling extreme guilt for not being there that week and extreme anger over what I think may've happened (as I piece) it all together and extremely extreme anger at the one nurse who ...if I didn't know better seemed to be intentionally neglectful of my mother because what ELSE could explain her lack of concern ...her lack of concern to take IMMEDIATE action?????!  Actually ...I don't know better.  If the aide is telling the truth ..there are some other occasions I am aware of in which she seemed to be inattentive and even intimidated me so that I didn't always push for something or insist on help with helping mom call here.  The entire winter I had concern about mom's abdominal pain, but she also had dementia and so when some came in to check ..she'd say her foot hurt.  Never the less ...when pain hit ...she gripped her abdomen which caused me to think bowels.  She died of a GI bleed that night in April.  I believe she was septic ...prior to the ER visit.  There is just so much - I don't want to get into it now.

I've got questions all over again.  I never did review the ED records from the night she died.  Those triage notes might contain a wealth of information that just might kill me to read.  I suppose it is why I've buried my head in the sand over this and frankly ...have been in limbo regarding the week, day, night ...mom died.

I've written about that time period in this blog and privately.  I journaled all of it.  I did it just to cope with my feelings and then I let it all go.  Or ..I just didn't want to face it ...not anything to cause me to feel worse than I already did.

But now ...after this call ...I have to go find out what I can for myself.

The thing is ...why is this aide calling me?  She did bond with my mother.  And she certainly put in the extra effort with her.  The only one to take the time to paint her nails.  She was the ONLY worker there that called me to put mom on the phone.  In 6 months time ...she was the only one who acted on the words I wrote  in black marker on hot pink paper taped on the wall over Mom's phone.  I asked anyone that came into the room to please call me and put mom the phone because was incapable of calling me herself.  Cafeteria workers, housekeeping, nurses, aides, administration or maintenance ...I wouldn't have cared.  Anyone would've been appreciated.  But no one ...took the time ...but this aide.

So ...I do believe she was conscientious and did care about my mother.

This aide called me two nights after mom died ...on a Sunday night about 8pm to tell me she was sorry.  I'm pretty sure she broke nursing home protocol doing that and HIPPA by taking my number out of the nursing home.  I don't care though as I did appreciate her kindness.

The thing is she called again ..telling me some things  that occurred on her last shift with mom, before mom died that night.  We talked a couple more times ..the last time that September I believe.

Then she called me around Christmas and the following mother's day and the mother's day after that.  I spoke with her at Christmas, but never returned her calls after that.  It was just too painful... even though she was just checking up on me.

She is originally from Guyenna and has lived around the world, but been settled in an area near Newark and commuted up here to work ...although she was let go from that nursing home when she reported an aide being violent with a patient - shoving and elderly woman into the bed rail because she was annoyed she was called in to change her.  The woman was sore with a lg contusion the next day and Mom's aide reported it and put it in writing.  The supervisor told her to reword it and not put what she put into writing but she did not redo it.  More happened and she was dismissed while the other woman was allowed to stay and she wondered if that violent aide had something on the nursing home.

I say all this because it does not escape me that possibly she has felt vindictive and wants to cause trouble for the home.  because they also prevented her form collecting.  But that was at least 3 1/2 years ago now.

Interestingly, not long before mom died ...she told the aide that she was pregnant and having a baby girl and aide said no way.  She was and she did. That little girl is now 3 years old.

The thing is I know from what I myself witnessed and experienced that she took good care of my mother when she had her.  I was very grateful for that.  Night shift not so attentive but that is another story.

Anyway ...I was surprised to get her call and this time I decided to take it.  I asked more questions.  I asked about that week with mom again.

I saw mom on Easter and she was doing better than she had been.  I was encouraged.  I told her I would not be in until Thursday because it was tax time and anyone that knows me knows that I put it off until last minute and then am consumed getting receipts, etc the few days before due.  Mom understood.  But I was also tired and was experiencing nausea everyday and so I did not go Thursday either.  I was however getting ready to go over that Friday afternoon, when the nurse called to tell me that they had to put a foley in mom that morning, but that she was fine now.  I asked how many ccs she put out and she said she didn't know because it came out around the foley.

I don't think I asked why it happened or if a urologist would be consulted although I did find out they use my urology group and so maybe I did ask those questions although I know I have never known the cause for that.

I also know they didn't care to consult a gastroenterologist for her abdominal pain.

I also know that extraordinary means are taken on people that should be allowed to die of natural causes in their elderly years.

But ...my major concern/FEAR is that Mom suffered SUFFERED needlessly that last week, especially so that last week.

That afternoon I asked about the open wound she called about in the beginning of the week and had informed me she called mom's doctor to get an order for a special salve to heal it.  She told me it was healing "nicely."  I asked how mom was and all chipper and like she was smiling over the phone she said, "Oh she's FINE and talking with EVERYONE!:)"

So ...I ...said tell her I will be in first thing inn the morning.  Why I didn't ask to speak with her ...I don't know.  I had the image of mom happily talking with people like I had seen in home life and enjoying conversation and guess I didn't want to interrupt that.  I felt like all was well.

And then not long after 6 I got a call from an obviously distraught supervisor that mom had a GI bleed.  There is more to this story ...the week before ..the night before ..that morning, afternoon and response of hospital staff when I asked confused questions.  I will say I had the feeling something was way wrong before mom ever got to having to go to the hospital.  matter of fact the supervisor seemed upset when I called back and said I'd meet them over at the hospital at which point she said paramedics had to intubate her.  I am sure she would've died at nursing home had I gone there.  I flipped that they hadn't already transported her  and so they did.

So today ...while asking questions ...the aide again told me she knew instantly that something was wrong because mom wouldn't sit up and when she was changing her saw that her stomach or abd (not sure now) was size of pumpkin.  First of all is that even possible from urine???

She said she pressed it and urine came out and mom cried out in pain.  She told the nurse who lied to me later that day and she did not believe aide or wasn't concerned and so aide got other person and that person told nurse and she came down.  Now that nurse said she couldn't tell me how many ccs she put out because it came out all around the foley.

This afternoon the aide told me she never used a foley... or foley bag.  That they pressed it out of mom.  and it was painful for mom.

Is that possible?

And she said they were shocked that it filled up the chuck or whatever pad they used.  They squeezed it out into a urinal a mans urinal or now I am confused but whatever they used it filled up one and a half of them.  And you KNOW it all didn't get squeezed out!

So I have to find out again what was used to collect it.  Why wasn't urologist consulted?  What exactly is documented in those nursing home notes?  And how will it compare to the ER triage and H&P notes later when they assessed her upon arrival to the ED?

I really didn't want to pursue this ...but now I just have to.

I can't bare to think about it now though.  :(

I really let mom down that week.  I mean I erroneously trusted the nursing home more than I should have.  I was guarded and knew to check up, but in hindsight I allowed myself to be intimidated at ties although other times I came at them like gangbusters when I saw they were leaving an open cut on her diabetic, poor circulation leg and only because of my insistence that night did the nurse come and put a dressing on it.  She stated the wound doctor would do it when he came in... which was not that often.  WHAT?????  She had to listen to me politely yet assertively rant on acquired infections and consequences in medical facilities.  I wasn't the nurse!  I did like that one tho.

Anyway ...in last call a few years ago Mom's aide did tell me momalso had multiple cuts on her legs (from wheel chair) that weren't dressed.

I believe either that open wound in beginning of week was infected or she had sepsis or some infection going on systemically that week.

Also ...while I am responsible for again choosing not to go in that day to see mom ...it was ONLY because she indicated mom was doing so well and seemed happy.  basically she robbed me of my last hours with mom.

The aide had also asked her when mom refused to eat that morning if they should call me and that same nurse who supposedly catheterized her said, "No because then she'll come in and ask a lot of questions and want tests done."

Actually, the night aide told me she knew something was wrong when she saw mom refused to eat even her ice cream at dinner the night before because she LOVED her ice cream.

I'll stop here for now.

What would you do about this?

I wanted to forget.

But this latest coming to light.... swelling as large as a pumpkin ...not using a foley to drain her, pressing on her abdomen to expel all the urine?  And did she retain urine when brought to ED?

And why in the world didn't they schedule her to see urologist?  Obviously SOMETHING was wrong.

At the very least urge me to come in and visit.  My God ...if I knew any of this or perceived the urology issue as emergent I would've been there in a heartbeat and stayed!  I will have to go back to look at what I wrote to find out exactly what was said.

She must've been suffering in quiet desperation ...unable to tell anyone why.  :(

And it took her one attentive aide to get the help she needed.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Christmas Eve Update



It's Christmas Eve and it's snowing!  I LOVE snow and especially on Christmas Eve.  How perfect!  :)

Our kids surprised me with a computer and younger son set it up earlier.  I'm back in my cozy ..yet efficient work space ..with my books, things I like and a view.

Everyone is coming here tomorrow and I can't wait to see Christmas through the eyes of the children.  And of course Christmas dinner and celebrating with loved ones.  And snow in the morning.  :)

Oh and regarding the previous urology post ...you don't know how close I was to actually putting red and green glitter in my urine sample today ...but then I realize it would've been contaminated.  And not sure it would've been seen as funny ...although I still think it is. :)

When I come back ...I'll talk about today's appointment ..oh and something funny happened today ...or I should say I did something funny today and realized it when I was in the urology office waiting room.  :)

I just could not get my Christmas basket done for them in time and so will deliver it Wednesday morning.  Btw ...I think I need to take canoli stuffing 101.  I KNOW ...how could canoli stuffing be a challenge?  I cut the tube to high up ...is why.  And I baked the cookies and made the fudge Sunday night ..but I wrapped them up tight and so should be alright. They stay in a tin around here and remain fresh for days.  Then there are some other things in the basket too.  I love doing it for them.

Well ...I've got wrapping to do.

And now it is officially Christmas.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!  I hope you have a wonderful day ...where ever you are ..work ..home ..visiting ...enjoy this special day.

God bless you.  :)





Sunday, December 23, 2012

This One ...No THAT One.... :)



An out of state friend sent our older son two gift cards for Christmas.  But ...a note explains that one card has money on it ...and the other does not.  He has to figure out which one has the money.  So ...of course he could be at the register with a zero balance gift card.  Just to tease him a bit.

Hahahahaha! :)


A Festive Christmas Eve Urology Procedure! ;)


This just happens to be red and green glitter floating on milk and so it would work.  :)

Baking, baking and more baking ...'tis the season!  Aromas wafting through the house ...just WONDERFUL.  :)

 Still decorating the tree!  First time ever.  I keep reminding myself that my German friends don't even put their tree up until Christmas eve.

I am feeling like "Carol of the Bells"  in my spirit ...which is typical by now.  I wish I had everything all done.  Every year I do fantasize about it.  Well, I do feel great that the shopping is done except for 1 stocking stuffer and a few gift cards ...easy stuff to find.

I do have a uro appointment tomorrow and so I am bringing them what has now become a traditional basket of Christmas goodies from us.  I'm not thrilled about a Christmas Eve appointment, but I had to cancel earlier in the month and I want to go in before end of year met deductible runs out.  It will certainly feel festive though ...Christmas Eve is always exciting no matter what you do.

I am expecting an uneventful appointment and would about die if I had to do a PUP (pure urine procedure). For any new readers, that's my made up acronym for what the procedure is really called when they want a pure sample, using a catheter.  I never remember that.  I have just always had a block about it. Seriously ...right now ...I'm actually trying to remember what the procedure is called and I know it is obvious.  Total block I tell you.  That is how much I loathe doing it and I'm grateful that I have not had to in ages. Anyway ...moot point I am sure.  I am doing well and certainly don't feel ill - like I have a UTI or anything.  Thank God.

Admittedly ...I wouldn't feel so Christmas Eve festive getting a PUP and I would resist and bargain every which way possible.  I've actually thought this through ...planner that I am.  :)

It could of course be a festive procedure if urodoc and m/a would sing a Christmas carol for me.  I'd sing too ...but they'd flee from the exam room if I sang since because God didn't see the need to give me the ability to sing well.  Hey ...wait a minute ...I could threaten to SING ...if I had to do a PUP.  That is one way to clear a room.  ;)

I could shake some bells if they sang "Jingle Bells."

And if I had to do this procedure ...well it would also really help if  they also wore Santa hats.

  And I could wear one too!

And ..I could also toss red and green sparkly glitter in the air while he does the procedure.

Okay ...that is the ONLY way this SeaSpray would ever agree to do this or any procedure on Christmas Eve.

Just picture it:  patient waiting on exam table.  Doctor and M/A walk in into the exam room with Santa hats.  They give the patient a Santa hat to wear and bells to jingle.  (A pretty cranberry with lots of white fluffy fur please:), and then they put their Santa hats on. While they sing, the patient shakes the bells.  Then they sing a song of the patient's choice ... A capella ...sans bells.  And then after they finish their last song ...they give the patient a bag of sparkly red and green glitter to toss in the air at will ...during the procedure.

Okay ...even this SeaSpray will admit ...that might be worth it.  And it would certainly make for a festive Christmas Eve Urology procedure  A bit of distraction goes along way in facilitating an as comfortable as possible procedure.

But ...as previously stated ...that is not a likely concern.  But that would be the deal breaker!  ;)

 Of course ...ever mindful of the urologic law of the universe ...when entering said urology office ...you will be expected to give a urine sample and it doesn't matter who you are or why you are there.  You give up your bladder rights when you cross the threshold into the urology domain.  You will give a urine sample.

Just saying.
And ...I would just LOVE LOVE to sprinkle a little red and green glitter into my urine sample.  It would probably float on top ...initially anyway.  Ha ha!  I think that would be hilarious and at the very least a festive surprise.

I've always said my whizzie winkles were pretty.  The sparkly glitter would just enhance what is already there. ;)

I really want to do it.

 Do I dare?  :)

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Friday, December 21, 2012

The End ....

Not What I Expected! :)




So there I was last night ...quietly sitting with mixed company ...facing each other (3 walls), in the waiting room of a medical office.  An opthamologist's office to be exact.  Well quietly, except for the rustle of 3 large notebook filled papers I had pulled out from my purse filled with a to do list, Christmas shopping ideas, food for Christmas baking and dinner.  Most notably ..a front and back filled out Christmas list made out for my convenience by 11 year old Devan.  Shades of her father for sure.  :)

Anyway, it's weird how pulling papers out of a pocketbook doesn't sound so loud at home, but in a waiting room in which you could here a pin drop because it is as quiet as an E.F. Hutton commercial (anyone remember the noise of that pin dropping on the desk?), it seems so magnified.  You just know that everyone pretending not to look at each other is glancing up ... is now looking your way.  Oh you do it too - we all do ...pretend we don't look, but we are curious about the people we are sharing the wait time with.

I was also juggling a book, a bottle of water and wearing a bright royal blue coat ...that definitely didn't allow me to just blend in.  While looking down, intently focusing on my list, I mindlessly felt around in my pocketbook for a tissue, pulled it out of my purse, but then just as I had almost pulled this l-o-n-g tissue out ...to my abject horror and humiliation ...I realized too late that I had pulled out a KOTEX pad that had fallen out of it's covering!  I just felt the soft material and pulled it out!

I don't know if anyone saw what it was ..because I didn't dare look and possibly make eye contact ...with any MEN in the room!  My facial expression/red face (I could feel the heat) along with my energetically shoving it back into said purse at the speed of light, must've been somewhat entertaining.  Like I said ...I didn't dare look.  As a matter of fact,  I kept my eyes down until the doctor called me in.

Maybe if it were a gynecology office it wouldn't have been so bad.  I mean it's not unusual to associate Kotex pads with a gynecologist office ..right?  Although the blotting thing ...wrong end.

Oh ...I suppose I could've pretended that I wanted to blot my face with a Kotex.  "Yes ...you are seeing correctly.  I WANT to pull this big Kotex pad out of my purse and blot my face with it.  They absorb so well.  You should try it.  Must be the excellent wicking process.  Really works I tell you!" 

 Who knows ...maybe I could've started a trend?  :)

Anyway, it was really nice of the doctor to squeeze me in to his appointments when I called at the end of the day.

Sunday, December 16, 2012

I'm So Sorry



My heart breaks for the little children and adults that were massacred in CT.  And for the surviving children and adults.  And for the police officers and anyone having to be on the scene and all families.  Little children ...so innocent and full of life.  Heroic education professionals.  This was just sick and pure evil.  What a senseless tragedy ..and at Christmas and Hanukkah, when you know everyone is all excited about the holidays and you know they've been thinking about having fun with their families and friends.  All the plans ...not just for the Holidays ...but hopes and dreams for a bright future.  And the sadness, pain and and anger that ripples outward from Newtown, across America and around the world. And fear.

It's Sunday now ...and honestly ...I've tried to shield myself from watching and listening to this.  But ...understandably ..it is being reported everywhere and it should be.  It is not because I don't care ...but because I care so much.

My heart and prayers go out to everyone involved.  I've been praying on and off when it comes to mind and I know people everywhere are doing the same.

I am so sorry
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Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Now You Know ;)

So Beautiful (Revised - Moved to Express More :)


Listening to Pandora Celtic and Classical Christmas music most of the day.



This song causes me to feel such love for so many people that come to mind that I care about.  I feel blessed that they are in or have been in my life.  I want all good things for them.  It causes me to feel grateful for so much.  What a profoundly moving song this is for me.  WOW.  And that is without knowing the lyrics.  The music and angelic sound of their voices ...so pretty.

It even reminds me of my Scottish grandparents, mom and family ...that I am missing so much right now ...a lot.  I never heard this during my childhood, yet it causes me to think of them..  But also people in my present.

Sentimental.

Grateful.

Love.

Blessed.

Longing.

Transcendence.

Joy.

Stirred to a profound depth within my innermost being.

But ...love ...love is the main emotion I feel while listening.  I come back to the beginning ..love and gratitude and wanting the best for everyone.

Do you have a song that causes you to feel this way?

And now ...after just reading the lyrics, it is one of my favorite Christmas songs.

Christmas music is just wonderful and makes everything feel so Christmassy ...even the least favorite housework chores.  :)
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I made a surprise crock pot recipe from when we were first married, only I cooked it on the stove because I wanted to make a large pot.  Son and friends are also around.  Now going to make some biscuits.

Still missing my own computer and out of sync with blogging.  look forward to being in my own blogging niche at some point ...soon I hope.  :)



Sunday, December 9, 2012

What NOT to Do When Cleaning a Paint Stick ...and Another Perspective

So ...I was washing out a paint stick in the kitchen sink (first mistake) this afternoon ...you know those things that hold paint in the long tubular roller handle.   We were also going to go get a Christmas tree shortly, but had to wash it out first or it would harden closed.

I had washed some dishes first and then decided to tackle the paint rinsing job.  Without thinking (OBVIOUSLY), I pushed the long handle on the tube ...not realizing there was still paint in the roller bar.  It has all these holes  that allow the paint to go into the roller ...except the roller was not on this roller bar.

I shoved the tube down hard because it was already beginning to harden from last night.  And white paint went flying out ...everywhere!  On the clean dishes, Longerberger cookie jar, Longaberger basket, up on the wooden cabinets, on the curtains, on the lamp on left side of sink, across the counter, on top of the stove and down the front of the stainless steel door, on the tile and on ME!  I couldn't BELIEVE it!  But it was white PAINT and no time to remain in shock.  I was so MAD!

I scrambled to clean up the wooden cabinets.  What a mess.

Then I decided ..okay ...thank God for the delay.  Maybe it's a good thing.  Yeah ...that's it ..this was really a good thing. I didn't feel it ..but decided it felt better to go with that thought versus wallow in the extreme frustration I was feeling in the moment.  It worked.  :)

Some years ago, I heard someone say that instead of getting angry when stuck in a traffic jam or having to wait for some reason ..to thank God for the delay because you may be being prevented from an accident of some kind up ahead.  I recall many of the WTC workers said they had delays that kept them from being at work on time that day.

Anyway ...it's one perspective to consider when dealing with delays.

 I couldn't get to the dripping paint fast enough.  Fortunately it was latex and cleans up easily although was smearing. And I did break a couple of nails scraping it off the tile.  And I still have some paint in my hair.

 And we didn't go out to get a Christmas tree.

But ...our family room is a nice ...bright white.  YAY!.  :)

Just have to look for the good.  :)

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Catching Up

Still no computer which has me all out of whack with blogging and commenting.  Involved in major painting project now ..and at CHRISTMAS ..what WAS I thinking???!  Although ...I am loving the outcome.

Right now our house looks like a housework, Christmas and paint project EXPLOSION happened!  And have paths to walk through until all furniture back into family room.  Gonna be pretty tho.  :)

I have an interesting post (says me) , when I can about how word of mouth with painters, etc worked. My friend wants them, they 're interested in urologists, etc.  WOM is important.  Interesting.

Bed HOGS! :)

<3~Vero

I've always SUSPECTED they did this!

Friday, November 30, 2012

Another Sign


Throckmorton Sign


It STILL Cracks me up!  :)

And ...laughter is the BEST medicine!  :) :) :)


WHOA! Reign in the Chatty :) and Stuff



I feel such peace typing at a normal computer again ...even tho it isn't my new one yet.  I felt my body go into s-o-o-t-h-e-d mode the second I got into my blog.  (The computer ...especially blogging ... is my binky, blanky, first few sips of a gin and tonic with a lime twist, Breyer's chocolate chip mint ice cream, etc.)  I became even more soothed as began typing and using the mouse.  Ummm ...this may mean I am addicted right ...somewhat?  Although, I don't blog anywhere near as much as I used to.

But ...it is also a favorite indoor hobby.  And I do love to write and I love reading other blogs too and very much look forward to getting back into it again.  I've been busier and so hadn't been as involved in blogging even before I lost my computer.  Anyway, the computer is more than that. When the computer works well .... I read news, shop, pay bills, e-mail friends and face book ..although I'm still not a major facebooker.  Then also office work, pictures and other things.  I LOVE the computer!

That being said ...I can see where it easily sucks time away from doing things you should be doing ...actually getting out with friends and family.  It has cut into my book reading time and I have gotten back into reading more ...which I'm enjoying.  I know the key is balance ...moderation in all things ...
which is hard for an all the way or nothing SeaSpray. Sometimes I need to pull back on the reigns a bit.  :)

Ha ...once in a visit with my orthopaedic doc, while I was sitting up on the exam table and he was still sitting down in the chair ...I half joked and said, "I know I can be chatty sometimes and so if I am ...then you can just reign me in." , and I said that while pulling back on imaginary reigns. He just busted out laughing and I joined in.  I'm not sure exactly what he was laughing at.  I laughed because he was laughing and hit me funny that he thought I was so funny.  But, I don't know if he cracked up because he now had a patient in front of him who was suddenly acting like she's riding a horse on his exam table ....or that *I* was giving *him* - the DOCTOR, permission ...or that I used the word "sometimes" chatty ...or all of the above?  Truth is ...with most docs (not all) ...if Chatty was rated like a pain scale ...I'm the 10.

Ha ha!  Can't you just see that little reference chart?  Little faces with their mouths shut tight and then up to the 10 ...open so wide you see their tonsils?  Well ..no ... that would be yelling ...but you get the idea.  Or maybe a chart depicting the the expressions of little doctors and nurses reactions to the patients ...ranging from concern, calm, agitated and at the 10 chatty patient while grimacing behind pseudo smiles, sharing a bottle of Tylenol.

Who knows?  maybe Orthodoc was envisioning a lasso and duct tape at that point?  :)

The problem is that I genuinely like my doctors and also there's usually stuff to cover, but I also insert other things.  I may've been spoiled my my former PCP who ended up going to a corporate medical position.  HE was a chatty doc.  :)  I still miss him and hope he and his family are well.  Believe me there have been some doctors that I couldn't wait to get out of their presence.  So ...I'm not an across the board chatty patient. I've just been blessed with some nice doctors that seem to evoke the chatty in me.

Although, since learning so much from reading med blogs, I do try to be mindful of it.

I still feel bothered by hurricane Sandy and things that happened.  I feel unnerved about a few things and maybe I will write about them.  I also recently got some extremely upsetting news that had me reeling yesterday and last night, but I am fine now.  The situation isn't.  It's just beginning.  It is yet another reminder of the fragility of life.

I really want to write about some very personal thoughts ...but not sure if I should or not.

And I heard an amazing ...miracle (so it seems to me) story of healing for my spiritual mom ...a lady I met decades ago at the hospital where we became fast friends.  I think she is 82 or around there within a year.  She is this beautiful woman ..inside and out that radiates God's love.  It seems he really protected and took care of her.  Even medical staff didn't know how it was that she was still walking.  Thank you God!  :)

Oh ...and now ...I am going on 21 months that I will not have had a ureteral stricture/relapse.  Thank you God!  :)

I'm so excited that it is the Christmas season now.

Fa la la la l-a-a  la la la l-a-a!  :)
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Thursday, November 29, 2012

Also - Not Ztring or Gstring

This pad is wearing thin on me right now.  I don't know why it wouldn't let me fix/finish previous post.  Just would not cooperate.

Anyway ...I also did not mean to sa Ztring.  OR Gstring.  Just STRING.  I meant to say/spell plain old STRING.  So ...where did G string ome fro in my mind's eye?

VICTORIA SECRET I suppose. All the Victoria's Secret news,commercials, etc., or just Gs on my mind ...no not thinking of Gs either.

I did work for a Mr Z once   He was an Asian man, my immediate sjlervislr when I workex at or local Playboy club.  Oh ...I am just Not voing back to make these corrections.  Word games are Fun!  I know you can figure it out.

But I digress.

Funny how the mind works ...connections we make.   For the sake of my sanity and a hungry Mr SeaSpray ...I HSVE to stop thpkng now.

zA ...that darned z again!

ANYWAY ...it might be amusing to decipher my typos while I'm using this ...or not.   But,  I'm thi.king that acter these two posts ...twitter lenggh blog posts is the way to vo.  Back to brevity ... I can do it. And NO ...I'm.NOTcorrecting anything.  Annoys ...yet amuses me.  Practice makes perfect, but may I not have to. :)


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Prolific Out - Brevity In

Still no computer.  Now son's computer dismantled.  *Sigh*  Using his google pad. Hence ...the brevity.  So...what's new?  Oh  ....yeah ..I just found out I won the lotto.  JOKING!  I rarely buy tickets.  Got your attention tho.  :)
Last night's full moon, casting a silver blue light on the snow covered fields and mountains -SPECTACULAR.  Midnight moonlight moonshadows while taking a walk even tho frigig temperature ...something else I appreciate.  Snowlite.  It's like the snow lights up on full moon nights.  Oh ...and the mountains look like tidal waves in moonlight.

Christmas lights up ...but of course  there is a snafu ...DARNED cheap Chinese lights!  WHERE are all the quality GE lights that actwally had recepters on the end of the string of lights  ...in this case a ztring of 400 lights ...that I still need   ok ...want to add a large extension cord to  down to a small pine tree to add 200 more.   The Chinese made receptacle wll not accomodate the 3 prong converter. #@$?!!  (I didn't really have a swear word in mind there ...just for emphasis on the frustration I felt. )  I'm not giving up!

Oh ....and it's too much work to backtrack to correct spelling errors with this pad.  PRobably easy -but I'm not used to this. I'm no Elmer Fudd (sp?) and honestly did not mean to say actWually.  Nor was IAttempting to swear with friGig ...if I had also inserted a n and another 3 gs.  Just saying.  :)  I meant FRIGID.  Btw ...where the heck are the quotations on this thing anyway?  AND

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Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Darn! I DON'T Want to go to the ER!


Seems I'm not the only one with a middle finger versus sharp can lid injury.  She got sutured though.  I don't have time.

My turn now I guess.

 How many times did I see patients come in to the emergency department with hand/finger lacerations because of an annoyingly dumb kitchen accident? A GAZILLION at least. I recall hearing med staff say the 3 most common reasons were from slicing a bagel, opening a cat food can and washing a glass and it seemed to be so. 


Our house smells wonderful with the baking and cooking and it's not even tomorrow yet with the turkey/stuffing roasting.  I'm in Thanksgiving mode - NOT ER mode.

 I was making a tortellini salad and put my fork into the olive can ..oh and my middle finger...specifically the knuckle of my middle finger into the olive can lid. DUH! I haven't used sharp lid can openers in yrs and picked this up when the power was out. It was all I could find in the store.  I didn't feel like pulling the electric can opener out ..which opens safely - no sharp lids.   All I had to do was move two things out of the way.


Anyway ...it's a jagged ..somewhat curved little slice in a real inconvenient place that just wants to keep bleeding. 

I REALLY do not want to go to the ER to get sutured!

 Everyone is coming here tomorrow and while things are /were moving along nicely ...no time for a trip up there. I'm up to date with tetanus. I've got  a few gauze and a stretchy pressure bandage on it and I'm keeping finger straight ...which btw ...of all fingers to keep straight ...ahem.


 I've always said there is no rhyme or reason to an ER patient schedule. I'm trying to calculate the best time to go if I have to. But, I'm hoping it will just stop.  I'm thinking 1 am ...or early in the morning after the turkey is in the oven.  The ETA of turkey into oven is at 07:00.  :)

Anyway, many patients often said they felt stupid about an accident. 20-20 hindsight and all. To help them feel better I would say, "No one plans to have an accident ..but they happen when we don't expect it and that's why they're called accidents." 


It's not helping me feel better. :)

I guess this precludes me from washing dishes. Now there's a silver lining. 


Hey Mr S-e-a-S-p-r-a-y ... :)

Finger hurts - I think I wrapped stretchy bandage too tightly.  The blood was pouring down my finger, but not bleeding through now.  Do I dare loosen it a bit?

Monday, November 19, 2012

Thanksgiving Pumpkin Cookie Time :)


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It's that time again.

Thanksgiving Pumpkin Cookies
(cookies in pic are similar yet different than mine)
Preheat oven to 375 degrees 
Cream together: 1 cup shortening, 1 cup brown sugar and 1 cup white sugar 
Then add: 1 1/2 Cup of pumpkin and 1 egg (sometimes I add a bit more pumpkin, but not much more) Cream together 
In a separate bowl mix together: 2 cups of sifted flour, 1 tsp. baking soda, 1/2 tsp. salt and 1 tsp. of cinnamon (I like cinnamon so I always add 1 heaping Tbs. instead of the tsp.)

Add dry ingredients to creamed mixture and mix well.

Then add 1 cup each of raisins, walnuts and butterscotch bits

Mix together and drop in tsp. on to cookie sheet. (can do Tbs. and bake longer - adjust time accordingly.)

Bake approximately 10 minutes - ovens vary (Cookies will rise and not spread out far and so you can get a lot on one pan)

While baking - make frosting

Frosting: heat on low - 3 Tbs. butter, 4 tsp. milk and add 1/2 cup of brown sugar. When cooler, add 1 cup of confectionary sugar and 3/4 tsp. vanilla.

Ice cookies while they are warm.

(I add and mix together as soon as everything is melted. Also, sometimes frosting starts to dry by the time ready for last batch and then I just stir in a small amount of milk.)

ENJOY! :)

p.s. I usually "only" make these for Thanksgiving and so they have become a Thanksgiving tradition that everyone looks forward to, which is a good thing since I DON'T do pies! :)  I have extended the recipe to Christmas for some people.  :)


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I'm off to Costco shortly.  Tomorrow I plan on baking these cookies ...LOTS of them and trimming bushes ...to prepare for the Christmas lights to go up on Friday.  :)



Sunday, November 18, 2012

6th blogiversary - Forever Hooked!


I just had to share that these six dolphins are leaping for joy that I am celebrating my 6th blogiversary!  Okay ...a SeaSpray can dream. ;)

 I feel so discombobulated right now that I even forgot that November 13th was my SIXTH blogiversary.  Wow SIX years!  Time sure does fly by - too quickly ...well unless you're in the dental chair ...having a stent removed in the office, on NPO forever and waiting for your first drink of water and morsel of food, waiting for the next presidential election ...or waiting to get your new computer ...just saying.

I feel so discombobulated with blogging because I am using son's computer when I can, but I can't get into writing like when I'm in my own little computer den all ...comfy and cozy.  Even though I'd love to be able to kick back and do my blog reading on a laptop, I am going to get a desk computer because I want to be hooked up to the printer and have scanning capabilities too.  But ..it would be so neat to just relax all comfortable on the sofa with a cup of coffee, tea or whatever... reading my favorite blogs. So - that is a wishlist item - someday. :) I will say that six years of sitting at the desk to read - not so comfortable.  But I think I would  prefer sitting up to write and so that is another plus for the desktop. I will be absolutely THRILLED to have my own computer again.  :)

Six years - seems like yesterday ...even though so many BIG changes have occurred.

The reason I  discovered blogging was because of my uro issues.  It's weird to think that I may not be blogging at all had I not had the urology concerns.  Oh and cervical faciitis.  The weekend of cervical faciitis ...when the only way to be pain fee was to sit upright, keeping my head still was when I discovered that blogs existed.  What better thing to do than read at the computer if you can't lie down to recuperate?  And so I did.  And now here I am ..still here six years later.  :)

Fortunately the faciitis cleared up soon after.  And even more importantly ...I have still avoided having the high risk ureteral repair surgery AND yesterday, November 17th was my 20 month ureteral stent removal anniversary. YAY!  I know I keep mentioning this - but it is a big deal for me because I've never gone this long without a relapse.  Double YAY!  :)

* All that urology stuff ...all because of one large kidney stone - first one ...back in may of 2004.   DRINK, DRINK, DRINK ...PLENTY OF WATER ...to help prevent the formation of kidney stones people!

In the beginning blogging was cathartic and a definite coping tool for all the medical tests, procedures and uncertainty/fear going on.  I often wrote inane, humorous (says me) posts about talking kidneys and kidneys and stents having separation anxiety - hence the spasms when the stent is suddenly removed.  Then the Bajingoland position due to the inordinate about of work being done in the area and whatnot ...my way of dealing with the stress, embarrassment and discomfort from all the things I had to do, i.e., was exposed to. (pun intended) I still think one of the funniest comment threads I ever read was in Trench Doc's post (wish he still blogged) about Germaphobia in which the comments somehow gravitated to Throckmortons.  (Do you capitalize Throckmortons?  Are Throckmortons worthy of capitalization?  I'm thinking ...Throckmorton-last name and so in here ...it's Throckmorton with a capital "T" :) The Throckmorton salad bar test and each man is his own compass - so funny.  Inside joke at this point.  :)

I 've enjoyed  the laughs from shared medical humor ...or ...the emotionally moving posts written by doctors, nurses and patients ..as well as some other non medical bloggers. The med blogs are certainly informative and I've learned so much.  And I've made some friends in the blogging community and it's pretty neat that we've maintained the friendships this long considering it's not real life.  Although ...in a way it is ...it's the blogging part of real life.

And since then social media has increased and people use Twitter, FB, pod casts, etc., but I just like to blog.  I did cave and begin a private facebook account last summer - 2011 and it has rekindled some friendships, brought me closer to others and been fun over all.  But I rarely twitter and I'm not a die hard facebooker.

Blogging is my love and I'd rather put most of my online energy into writing posts and reading/commenting on others and I will get back to it when I am hooked up with my own computer again. Of course ...they say never say never and perhaps in the future, I will become more interested in those other things.

Blogging also helped me when my mother began declining in health, went into the nursing home and died 6 months later.  That was a really rough time ...one of the most difficult times in my life.  Being able to write about my feelings and experiences and the supportive comments really helped me get through that time.  And even then my emotions were spilling over into comments in other blogs and one blogging friend suggested grief counseling.  I went for it, hooked up with an amazing counselor and she helped me tremendously.  I am still grateful to those of you that took the time to encourage me or let me know you understand. And Angel ...I shall always be grateful for your phone call (totally surprised me) when you called me the day after Mom died.

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I was totally and DELIGHTFULLY surprised one day when Ramona Bates ...from Sutured for a Living blog sent me the cutest, most adorable quilt for our soon to be born granddaughter, Wrenna.  Ramona is one of the most thoughtful and creative bloggers on line.  She often donates her beautiful creations to worthy causes or gifts them to family and friends.  More recently she surprised me with a cute quilt post card I fell in love with.  When I saw the return address... I was again delightfully surprised and couldn't wait to open it. Thank you again Ramona.They always evoke warm thoughts when I see them..   :)

Anyway ...I've written all kinds of posts since I began this blogging journey.  My personal favorites are the humorous ones.  :)  And I've written some serious ones that I really like as well ...the ones in which I poured my soul into.  I have always said I want to print out the special ones so I have a hard copy, but never have.  I would like to go back to the beginning in this blog, to delete things I don't want anymore and to print all the posts that are special to me.  (Comments too)  Because if  this blog just disappeared one day, I would be heartbroken to have lost everything.

I used to write novellas in other blog comments - but not so much now.  But,  I've always appreciated that WhiteCoat has always welcomed my novellas. :)   Btw - WhiteCoat's Call Room is a terrific blog!

And there are many good blogs I've enjoyed, but not mentioned here.

I was also both surprised and  honored when Jeff (blogging Psychiatrist) invited me along with Chrysalis Angel to be a coauthor for a new blog he was starting up. I really liked his writing and his humorous e-mails.  And also that a couple other medbloggers invited me to write guest posts. I just couldn't believe they read what I wrote and liked it enough to invite me to do something with them.  You see ...I just think of myself as an informal writer just writing in my diary ...that just happens to be open to the world.  :)  And I've written about this before and even told the story on Dr A - Mike Sevilla's (Family Medicine Rocks)Blogtalk radio show.

 It was a Saturday night, November 18, 2006 ... when I went into my 5 day old blog and was shocked to see that Fat Doctor had left my first comment.  Not only was I shocked that someone actually read something in my blog,  but that a doctor left a comment.  I shrieked, Fat Doctor left a comment!  Fat Doctor left a comment in my blog!"  Not only did I scare Mr SeaSpray and my son with my sudden outburst while they were quietly watching TV ...but they also didn't know what the heck I was talking about ...never mind excited about.  Ha ha!  And then I shrieked that I had two MORE comments.  But ...you never forget your first.  :)

And then ...I was hooked ...forever hooked on blogging ...hook, line and sinker hooked ...forever hooked on blogging.  :)

PS - I am sorry to see that the first blog I ever read and in it's entirety, Urostream has gone private.  KeaGirl ...a blogging urologist, was one of my favorite bloggers.  I both learned and laughed a lot while reading her posts.  And I greatly appreciated that she took the time to answer questions.  I loved her blog so much that I just had to check out some other bloggers on her blogroll ..read through them ...and the rest is history.

I also wish Scalpel, an ER doc, would also come back to blogging.  His has been dormant ever since he went off on his own into a private medical venture ...if I remember correctly.  I'm now also thinking of two other stellar bloggers that have me riveted to their posts when I read them,but if I don't stop here ...I'll never eat DINNER.  :)

Seriously ...BLOGGING ...one of best hobbies ever.  :)




Friday, November 16, 2012

Career Planning :)




Wrenna and I talking - Wrenna exclaimed she wanted a certain doll (now I know what to get her for Christmas:), and I said how do you plan to get it?

"I'll buy it."

Do you have money?

"No."

You need money to buy the doll.  You'll need to get a job to make money.

"Oh."

What kind of job do you want?

"Go to work."

Where?

"Be a doctor."

Awww!  I wish I had access to my computer so I could put up a picture of her in this awesome doctor's coat she got for her birthday.  She took her role as Dr SeaSpray very seriously.   :)

Monday, November 12, 2012

OOPS!



My single friend was planning on a cozy night at home, watching a good movie with a roaring fire in her wood stove.  But she made it too high and had black smoke billowing out.  Called and cancelled 911.  But here is her follow up to that ordeal.:

"911: ok you can cancel that call I seem to have my fire under control now.........8 firetrucks pull up,oh God!I now have about 50 fireguys all over my house looking for some good fire action when all I have now is a normal fire and a lousy movie. Welcome to my world"

Why waste a call ...CPR anyone?  ;)

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Thank You Veterans






Kissing __s! :)



"my daughters cat whom I love and adore was sound asleep in a donut position, purring away. She is so adorable that I began to kiss her little tucked in head for several minutes before she finally moved and I realized I had been kissing her ass all along!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

 Even if I didn't see her name attached to this facebook comment ...I'd know this was my friend.  Only Donna!  :)

Urolgy Blog Post Recommendation/ I Wonder?





*Sorry about the unintended highlighting below.  

I read an interesting post in Dr Schoor's urology blog, " Storm Related Lessons."

Dr Schoor discusses how hurricane Sandy affected the NY metro region, particularly the storm effects on local businesses.  "A practice's vitality is dependent on the vitality of its community.  You may have the best back-up and disaster recovery plans, but if your community gets destroyed so will your ability to remain viable"   He talks about some medical practices totally destroyed and others still intact, but lost their customer base.

Admittedly, I have mostly focused on  on the suffering of people left homeless or enduring power outages  and long gas lines ...but had not thought too much about the businesses that were damaged or devastated.  Well ...except for the 2 NY hospitals (NYU Langone Medical Center and Bellvue), that had to evacuate because their backup generators failed.  But,  I was also out of the loop and did not see any of this news in real time.  There is just so MUCH to take in. 


Dr Schoor shares some lessons for how to be as prepared as one can be for this type of calamity coming against a medical practice.


He also mentions that he still got calls from patients during the 100 year storm.  God bless doctors, other medical personnel and emergency workers that do have to go out in bad storms to help others.  

And that was something that ran through my mind when our power was out.  I am feeling fine, and STILL have an open ureter coming up on TWENTY months post mother of all ureteral stents removal.  TWENTY MONTHS!  I've never gone that long without a relapse and I am one GRATEFUL SeaSpray.  :)  

But, I was so miserable - out of sorts and cold without electric an no running water ...and I was thinking it would be a HORRIBLE time to have a relapse.  Anytime would  would be bad ...but I always want to shower and do all those girly things before going to the hospital.  Even in pain ...if possible ...I would always want to do that first.  Thankfully ...that was and is a moor point.  :)

HERE is the link to, "Storm Related lessons."
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As a patient, I wonder how doctors can access your medical records if they need to in these situations?  I confess, I still like the idea of hand written medical notes (I know - they've gone the way of the dinosaur), but then I am guessing that if any physician was still using hard copies in an area where the Atlantic Ocean met the bay, that those records were washed out to sea.   I've wondered though ...what happens if  something major happened in the world and electronic records are inaccessible?  At least you can still open the file cabinet.  Then again ... I guess if something that serious happened ...there would be a lot more than medical records to worry about.

I do have concerns about EMRs though.  I think errors are less likely when notes/orders are hand written.  Although ...I also know the wrong orders can be mindlessly written or mixed up with another patient. I think errors could occur or something important could be missed if rushing through computer screens.  And ...I don't like the idea of a medical error being perpetuated through the system to whomever has access to said records.


Also, from what I've read in the med blogs, doctors are inundated with superfluous information generated by EMRs and I am concerned important information about the patient could be missed.  I'm wondering if that happened with me recently ...but I've gotten off track now ...haven't I?  :)


Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Two Words: Thankful and Surreal



I wanted to check out Ocean Grove next summer. (Pier- Ocean Grove)   My God - look at the size of those waves!   I simply cannot believe the destruction Hurricane Sandy caused all along the Jersey Shore ...places I am so familiar with.  It seems they may not even exist any longer ...except for a few remnants of what was ...here and there.  (Also in NY - I'm not forgetting NY)

I'm back on line - to stay ...I hope!  We were some of the people being referred to still living in the dark.  And some people are STILL without power!  And now this nor'easter bringing snow to us right now.

No power for 7 1/2 days.  It went off 10:30 last Monday nite.

I wrote the following to family and friends when I went back on line this morning: "‎7 1/2 days without power sure does foster even greater appreciation for the simple things in life - easily taken for granted when all is well. And I am still so thankful the large tree did not fall on our house or our neighbor's house and that the other tree/pole did not fall on our other neighbor's house. It is surreal seeing all the devastation from Hurricane Sandy and I've only seen a few pictures so far. I grew up at the Jersey shore and it feels even more personal. My prayers continually go out to all those suffering/affected by the storm and to all those helping."

I am extremely grateful that a tree fell into the pond instead of on our house or the neighbor's house.  I took pictures and will share when I get my computer back or a new one.

Oh...yesterday morning the power finally came back on and my computer wouldn't go on after I turned it on.  it just had a little red flashing lite and then would not turn off either.  So ..I've unplugged it.  :(  I will use son's computer when I can.

I knew it was on it's way out because it was working so hard when operating.  But I turned it off before the storm took it out.  I don't know if the cold damaged it or just a coincidence.

Anyway ..if that tree had fallen on our house it would've crashed right through the cathedral ceiling in the family room ...crashing down on my son, m-i-l and our dog.  Also... possibly me while I was baking oatmeal cookies in the kitchen.  And the oil tank.  We all thought a car door had closed and that someone was coming in to stay with us.  Faith barked.  No one came in and we forgot about it until son let Faith out.  Then he exclaimed, "Mom! the wind blew the tree into the pond!"  I think the water must've muffled the sound.

Also ...just that morning ...as the wind was picking up ...I told Mr SeaSpray and my  m-i-l, that our previous neighbor's son brought that tree home in a milk carton.  His mother said it was a fast growing tree, but doesn't have a deep root system.  it is about 30 years old now.  I told them that I always pray for our safety and protection of house and property during bad storms and also the same for the neighbors.

I envision an angel blocking the fall and pushing the tree in the opposite direction. :)

I was also thank God all night and the next day for protecting us.  I still do.

Also ...one of our neighbors had a large tree and a utility pole fall between their house and a gazebo. It was a narrow area and thankfully did not hit their house either.  It also left a live wire down.

Again ...thankfully we were all safe.

Sadly ...that wasn't the case for so many others during hurricane Sandy.

You all probably know more about the devastation that occurred than I do because I didn't see any of the TV coverage of the storm damage until this past Saturday.  And even then ..it was minimal.

I can imagine it was covered like Hurricane Katrina was.  And that is surreal too.  That people out of state and from around the world know more about your area than you do.  I thought all the cars lined up on the highway had something to do with a bad accident and was shocked to hear they were cars waiting in gas lines because of a fuel shortage.  The whole thing was/is surreal.

It was really hard not having electricity for so long ...particularly because it is so COLD.  Then when I saw the destruction on TV when I stayed at my m-i-l's Saturday night, it obviously seemed inconsequential compared to all that the hurricane victims were enduring and still are.  :(

At least we still have our house and family intact.  And the Jersey shore ...where I grew up and have since vacationed  ..I could hardly believe it.  Staten Island, Queens, and LI ...all surreal ...and tragic.  Those people in these areas DESPERATELY still need so MUCH Help.

I guess ...thankful and surreal are  the main words that comes to mind.  I am still acclimating to normalcy.  I learned some things too.  Particularly how unprepared we were for a LONG TERM emergency.

I'll post more about these things .


Monday, October 29, 2012

Storm Update and stuff


 
 WIND REALLY HOWLING AND KICKING UP!  I don't recall storm winds around here this strong - ever.  Front picture window rattles a bit even tho a storm is up too.  Wind is scary sounding ...and relentless.  I heard on radio today that the Hudson river looked like the ocean.  The waves at Point Pleasant (my old stomping ground) are HUGE.   I do wish I could be there in person - but of course that's dangerous.  Heard they even closed the parkway.  If wind this strong up here - I can only imagine what it's like at the beach areas.  I pray trees don't break, power stays on and that we all remain safe.  Our neighbors basketball thing blew over.  Ours is still up but we really have it anchored down.  Well ..in daylight it was still up.  It feels so cozy inside.  I have all the amber candles on in the windows (for harvest season :) and I am truly grateful to be inside.

I wish son didn't have top go out to work.  But I guess people go out for booze in a storm.  Can't wait until he gets a better job!  His college loan payments are about to start.  At least he has 2 PT jobs.  Some of his friends don't even have that.  I DO hope if Romney gets in ...that the change and knowledge of his business experience will breathe hope into businesses and their new found optimism will cause them to begin hiring again.

My God - it sounds like a TRAIN barreling over the roof!

I'm thinking maybe I should shut the computer off now.

Nite all.  :)

PS ..wind really sounding scary out there - never experienced this.  You southerners in tropical areas prone to these severe storms and at a more dangerous level ...are brave people.




Sunday, October 28, 2012

OOPS! Wrong Map- Not Hurricane Sandy

Ha!  I was looking at hurricane maps so often last night that when I saw this in FB - I just assumed it was Sandy.  Obviously didn't REALLY look at the map OR the date.  Still funny tho.  :)



Actually, one of younger son's part time jobs is working in a liquor store and for two days they have been slammed with customers - NONSTOP busy.  After all ...there is stocking up ...and then there is STOCKING UP. Priorities and all.  :)

I'm still hoping it will be uneventful around here ...although we brought m-i-l here to stay with us, tub is filled, frozen water bags in freezer and fridge (in case power goes out) and I put water in other containers as well.  Stocked up with food.

We both have appointments tomorrow.  I would still go.  I drove in a hurricane once and so it just depends on flooding in the area.

Schools are closed.

I always pray for protection and safety ..for us, neighbors and all around ..including in other states.

Oh and can you believe that while the east coast is getting slammed with the Perfect Storm on steroids ...that a 7.7 earthquake hit Alaska ..off the coast of Canada and then a tsunami watch was on for Hawaii?

I have my opinions about this.

I hope those of you in the path of this storm will be safe, warm and cozy and that it will be uneventful... with minimal or no damage.

And that the power will stay on for all of us.

A SeaSpray can dream.  :)


Saturday, October 27, 2012

Who Knew? Define Plenty Please (32oz? 64oz or 84oz?:)

So THAT'S all I have to do!  ;)


The Doctor Told Me To Do It (Baltimore, MD):
I was a resident in my second year of training for Internal Medicine. I was on-call and spending much of my night in the ER doing admissions. Our seats for writing up the admission orders and notes were kind of situated in an area where patients and their family members would come up and ask questions.
One night in particular, I was near one of our ER physicians when he was giving out discharge instructions to someone he was sending home. He handed the paper to the patient. He was looking at the discharge instructions as the ER physician explained them.
The ER doc suddenly snatched the discharge paperwork from the patient and said, “Give me that.” He went back to his desk and started writing up another set. After the patient had left, the doc gave me a copy of the discharge paperwork. It read:
Discharge diagnosis = nephrolithiasis (kidney stones)
Discharge instructions = Drink plenty of urine
Of course, I copied the paper, made it into an overhead, and showed it at morning report :)

Photo Credit - Please note: this link is not an endorsement by me regarding treatment for any medical condition.  I have no idea if it is credible or not.  Just liked the picture.

3 Things



1.  My arm was aching today and I just remembered ..duh!..I was given the flu shot yesterday.  I just felt it and it is hot through my sleeve and has a swollen radius about the size of a croquet ball.  I'm guessing this is also why I feel a bit feverish. ?  And it itches.  This is only the 2nd flu vaccine I've ever gotten and so I'm not familiar with this. And it didn't happen like this last year.  I haven't looked at it, but it feels like a bad bruise.  I know - this too shall pass.  My PCP won that war.  There was no way he was letting me get away without a flu shot.  No other doctor ever insisted before.

2.  I saw on facebook earlier ...that a friend stated the local stores are crazy-busy because of the storm threat next week with hurricane Sandy.  I thought - "Really?  We are up in NJ and it's not even in the Carolinas yet."  Now ...I just saw on the news that NJ and NY have already declared a state of emergency and they're concerned about power outages too.  Again ..."Really?"  But ..then I saw that not only are they concerned about the hurricane but also a severe snowstorm may hit us too?  Okay ...now I'm paying attention!  Even though we don't live in the shore areas - we can still get heavy winds and rain ...and snow ...well that does sound like a Frankenstorm.  If it still looks like it's all heading this way ..then I'll shop tomorrow too. 

Wow ...I just did some reading up on the predictions.  They are comparing it to the "Perfect Storm" of 1991 ..only worse.

I'm going shopping for some food and other supplies tomorrow.  At least our refrigerator isn't all that full.  And I will fill ziploc bags with water and freeze them tomorrow and should be enough to keep what is in freezer and refrigerator.  This is when I don't like having an electric stove.  At least you can still cook and have coffee with gas.  But thanks to Costco ...we do have toilet paper and paper towels - whoo hoo!  ;)

3.  Now I really-am-going-to-clean-the-tub-and-hang-the-curtains.  And DO some of that wash now too.  All of a sudden ...NOW I want to get everything done! 



Photo Credit

Hopefully it will go back out to sea.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Family Circus Day!



Not a good morning thus far. And admittedly ...I am feeling grouchy ..probably because I am tired and I am tired because I stayed up too late (I know) and so am also mad at myself ...because I knew I'd be up EARLY this morning and it wouldn't be a big deal ...except I hardly slept the night before ...because I knew I was having a physical in the morning (yesterday - I'll post about it) and ..and now Mr SeaSpray just came back in and he is gonna be some kind of really aggravated in a minute.  Be back.

So ..the kids were here before 8 this morning.  I am continually amazed at how busy I am with little ones ...close in age even tho Wren is now 3.  I bought washable markers so Myles could do some artwork.  He doesn't apply enough pressure with crayons and I've found that it's easier for little fingers to start out coloring with markers since pressure isn't necessary.



My knees also hurt a bit   okay ...BADLY because I was on hard floors wayyyyyyy to long yesterday.  When watching the children ...I rarely get to do this - be at computer.  I tried several times before this. Anyway ..I had pictures made up yesterday from when we were at the wedding and then got a pretty frame for my m-i-l's picture.  It is so nice of her, Mr SeaSpray and our sons - 3 generations..  It was taken outdoors after the ceremony.  Okay ...I hear a noise I need to check out in the family room.  I want to ignore it because everything is baby proofed ...but since it's unidentifiable ... and it was just a little hammering with a toy ...on the TV.  The other thing you don't want to hear ...is nothing.  When kids are too quiet.  Ha ha ...I haven't experienced that yet today.  :)  I do want to say that they are well behaved ...but just busy.  And I think because out of their home environment ...don't have all the things that keep them busy.  I do think that when they are your kids ..you have routines and ..I don't know ..it's just different.  I do feel my sons would self occupy better.  So ...maybe it is also the energy with two children interacting and competing, etc.  Ours were 8 yrs apart.

ANYWAY ...Mr SeaSpray told me he was going to his mom's (the great ESCAPE) ...I'm sure.  Well he was already grouchy because he was stuck with the job of bathing Faith, our dog because she smelled like she rolled in chicken poop.  UGH!  About that ...I was about to bring her outside to tinkle last night, when she just ZOOMED past me ...right out the door and out into the night.  I don't know what she saw ....or smelled ...but she ran so fast that her hind legs seemed to be going up to her mouth as she ran.  I called and called ...but she took off.  I shut the door and figured she'd return at some point.  I hoped she wouldn't lay in that awful stuff ...but she wreaked of chicken poop or some critters poop.  UGH!!!!  It was after midnight and all I could do was block her in the kitchen at that point.  Knowing the task of washing her would fall on Mr SeaSpray since the kids would be here.  Also knowing it would not be a great start to his day.  It is so GROSS and I get all freaky about her getting near anything (including the kids or us) and it is hard to wash off.

The first time she did this was last summer when we didn't have any electricity and I about died at the thought of not being able to bathe her.  But fortunately I got the idea to tie her to the deck and I bathed her with pool water. I don't know WHAT this is.  WHAT in the world would cause an animal to want to roll on their back in another animals waste?  Or maybe it is some awful smelling urine?  Don't know.  But smells like a chicken coop!

So he got up and got right to washing her - OUTSIDE.  He washed her twice and then we had to let her dry in another room  ...away from the kids.

So ....I've been interrupted  40,000 times already.  :)  I'm also not sure what exactly came across the m/a's voice mail at one office.  I think the word socks and Wrenna and ended with NO MYLE'S WAIT! Oh my phone number MYLES No! - uh thankyoubye!My (click) les!  *Mental note made - never handle a phone call from the wall phone when you have a wireless one so you can go after the kids.



Btw ... they may seem like they misbehave.  They are really good children ..but very busy and Myles is heading for Two and so he is into e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g with a special interest in CLIMBING.  :)

I have to go again ..Lunch time and Mr SeaSpray is restless and I didn't even get to the marker ink off the couch around 8:30 this morning.  back later.  I do feel better venting a bit and not so tired now.  Okay later!  Oh it's 12:15 now.  ( I turned the computer on at 9am)

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5:31 pm now - macaroni and cheese coming out of oven soon.

Where was I?

Oh yes ... I was only gone a few minutes and Mr SeaSpray watching kids with markers but Myles still managed to add his artwork in purple on the sofa arm and seat.  I STILL have not washed it off but am trusting washable means just that and it will come off when I wash it.

I was annoyed because I realized that the Ohio calls that just hang up are coming from Macy's.  WHAT?  I PAID that 5 days early on line!  Sure enough - 25.00 charge and payment doesn't show. ???? I paid 2 other credit card bills and went right over to Macy's and paid the same night!  It also doesn't show out of my account?  How could this be?  I did not get a chance to call them today.

Anyway ...Faith still smelled and so Mr SeaSpray had to go back out to get a different dog shampoo and after lunch we bathed her in the tub and washed her 3 times.  Of course  ..that all meant I had to clean the tub and if cleaning the tub ...I might as well change the shower curtains, etc.

Admittedly the cleaning spray is STILL sitting on the tub surface and so must tackle that before bathing the kids.

Wren never naps.  Myles does - but hardly at all today.  It is amazing how much calmer things are when it is only one child.

And now dinner ready ..must go.

these kids are so darn cute!

Speaking of darn ...if that darn dog didn't roll in that excrement it would've been an easier day for sure.  I don't remember all the other things I was going to share.

I hear stores are already crazy busy in anticipation of power going out if we are affected by hurricane Sandy.  Our house looks like an internal hurricane hit and I've been picking up all day.  I did teach Myles to help make scrambled eggs earlier - forgot about that.  Well ..I let him stir and he was so proud that he helped.  Wrenna has been her adorable self - saying the cutest things.

And at least the dog is clean, shiny and smelling good now.

Oh and now I have to wash kitchen rugs, bathroom rugs, several towels, and steam clean the hallway rug because she snuck through the gate and slept on it last night.  Actually - her running away last night was the catalyst to all this pia crazy today.  I'm glad Mr SeaSpray was off.  I'll bet he wishes he wasn't.

I am in such a blogging mood.  I hope I get to later.

PS - Darn!  It is now 9:54 pm and I just realized I never went back into clean the bathtub and hang the other curtains.  Double DARN!  I have to do it.  UGH!  I ended up not giving the kids a bath since their dad was coming for them soon after dinner.  Now ..I just don't want to but I think everyone will want shower curtains up in the morning and to not shower with the scent of eau de clorox cleaner wafting up with the steam.  They'd be sanitized tho.  :)